stand alive

Do you sometimes feel like you're at a standstill?

Like you're caught in the middle of everything.

You're here, but you're not...if that makes sense.

Sometimes I feel that I'm physically here but my mind just wanders when I'm hanging out with people.  I don't know...

Do I analyze things too much?

I think that I do.

But how do you change that?

And how do you draw that line?

I know that God has designed me specifically the way I am.  I know He has brought me to the point at where I am today for a reason.  But sometimes I wish I could go back to certain moments, or certain ways I acted and viewed life - more like a child like faith I guess.  It's weird, because I want to grow up...but at the same time, the more I do the harder it becomes and the more struggles and problems I tend to encounter.

BUT at the same time, the older I get, the more equipped I am to follow God and His will for me.

I am called to die to myself; to the excuses I make; to the wants I have; to worldly perfection I seek; to the attitude I have sometimes.

I pray that God would be alive in me!